2020 (Dedicated to my daughter)
This is the year where my life changed, and I am not just talking about the excessive hand washing and social distancing.
This was the year, I experienced changes in all areas of my life: professional, personal, and financial…………….. and to top it all off I even learned how to cook!
Everything started when I found out I was going to be a mom.
It all happened in May of 2019, I was sitting in my office with a pregnancy test in my hand working up the courage to look and see the results. To my surprise it was positive.
This new life-changing moment opened the door to an ocean of possibilities. I have to be honest, I never imagined my life as a “mother” and I found myself on a completely different path that was both scary and exciting.
Looking back, I have always been an independent woman, I had been living alone for the last six years, and I still remember the day when I decided to move to Bogota, to start my own life hundreds of miles away from my parents.
Soon after as life has it, I got on opportunity to relocate to Mexico. This part of my life was full of new experiences and I lived in Mexico City for two years, as I am always looking for the next opportunity, I am writing this blog from my house in the US … Truthfully, my whole life has been against the ropes moving and constantly adapting.
Being a mother wasn’t in my plans especially because as I said before my lifestyle didn’t permit it, not because I was a party girl, that was never my style, but It was more about my love for traveling and never really putting down roots in one place.
I made a decision the day my beautiful Sofia was born, to give her the importance that she deserved. It was a magical day when I finally meet her for the first time, that little person that was growing inside me.
The new baby happened right after switching companies. The stars had lined up and somehow I found myself starting a new job at a new company, the whole experience blows my mind too, you see I had only been working there for a month when I found out I was pregnant. As you might imagine, this is much more impactful as a woman. But my company was very supportive which I am so grateful for.
I have a feeling that you can imagine the uncomfortable conversation I had to have with my boss and coworkers.
The months passed, and I decided to move to the USA, my baby was destined to be born in Atlanta in this little baby factory called the Northside Hospital.
Sofia born on January 25 and a new part of me was born too. I didn’t have any idea about babies, about how to feed them, change diapers, and put them to sleep.
I was really naive about everything that was involved with being a first-time mom, but in the end, I figured it out and made it happen. As I am so far away from my family I have had to go through all of this on my own., I don’t have my family here and they don’t even have Visa’s to come and visit. Even Sofia’s dad has his brother and sister here but they don’t have any idea about babies too. To top it all off soon after moving here the global pandemic started which made things even more difficult
Postpartum was another surprise, I started losing my hair, nursing the baby might look easy but it’s not. Today, Sofia just turned 8 months, she survived and she continues to be a gift that I never expected.
Sofia changed my life completely, now I see the world through her eyes, everything is a new adventure for me and I am here to go through this journey hand by hand. I am pretty sure; she will be a better version of me. I know she will probably not listen to my advice but I am sure that she will follow my example. Lead by example
Life is good, I am reading more, writing in English, trying every day to master this language and be more focused on my goals all while being more present. This has grounded me more on what is really important in life and has helped me to stop struggling with my thoughts which was quite common in the past.
Just like as if I were playing Mario Bros, I reached a new level, a month ago I was rehired by the same company I was working for in Mexico but here in the USA. It is a huge opportunity for me because it is the first time I must interact in English all day with people of different parts of the globe, and FYI, the accents don’t make it easier
Work culture is different here too, people are more focused in many ways colder. I get the feeling that it is all business and no fun. I still remember asking one of my colleagues where she was from, to my surprise I got a “Why are you asking me” response that left me shocked. I am going to keep at it and I hope to not let my caring hearth be too affected by people.
Dealing with my work and baby is like a marathon every day, at the end of the day I am grateful that “I survived another day”
We are on our way to find help at home with the chores and the baby. Every day is a new challenge and I am constantly looking for the best way to get things done.
This has allowed me to admire the women around the world, all of those mothers that are fighting for their families, dreams, companies, and jobs.
I know that there is a perfect roadmap to what is ahead that will tell me how to be a good mother and come out alive years later when the kids are all grown up.
I think that every day must be lived and make sure that every minute counts with your family and with yourself. We are capable of everything and this year I have to learn more than the year before, which tells me that I am growing.
En última instancia, vivir significa asumir la responsabilidad de encontrar la respuesta correcta a las cuestiones que la vida plantea, cumpliendo la obligación que nos asigna (Tomado del Hombre sin Sentido)
